20th September 2005,
Tues morning- 10.15am to be exact. Has been a while did not write the blog. Need to get it moving, or else it'll disappeared and the habits of writing blog will just die down. Nothing much. Last 2 weeks has been a wonderful day, especially with Pas Sam's Sermon- Title: Sonship in Christ vs. Orphan's Spirit. It's powerful, a reminder of the condition that seems quite familiar- a change of attitude and the assurance of the love of God, the power and authority as the Son of the Most High God. How often we forgotten that, how often we act in an "Orphan-Spirit" as if we're so lacking, as if our heavenly Daddy not able to provide, as if we're been slave down by all the trials and concern of the world. How often we act as the brother of Prodigal Son, full of envy, insufficiency, inadequatecy, not knowing that all "these", all of the Father's possesion belongs to us.
Wed Nite we had a Late Nite Prayer. I went there late, coz helping Foong Ping (Relau Pharmacy) take care her shop. Wed Nite I cried...Joanna lead the Prayer, the Worship and the Prayer of repentance, of tuning our heart back to Him. I wonder why I can cried so easily during worship. Checking deep in my heart, am I loving You God...am I go higher, or lost somewhere? But with the assurance again- whichever state I am, God still won't want to let me go, He is persuing me higher, he take the initiative when i lost all the initiative. repentance is an ACT, not just a word of Sorry, it's an action and turning, moving out. Am I doing it?
Breakthrough Nite. I did not involved in Fasting. The week has been really tight, and I didn't fast. Yet, Praise God- Breakthrough Nite ministered well to the heart and soul of His people. Pas Solomon talks about religious spirit, about Fear, about God's wisdom, about fully trust Him with all we have. Simple message yet full of power. Many people slain in the Spirit, casting demon-possessed, boken in the Spirit.
Work has been okie. With 2 pharmacists in placed, things run pretty well. Just that staff noise still the same level, noisy and always excited. Medication Errors has improved. Keep it up! This week will be going KL for Malaysian Oncology Society Scientific Conference. Hope I can learn something new on Cancer Drugs. Another 2 more days will be the Daddy's Annivesary in Heaven. So fast, 2 years already- nothing much change, got new house, Mum stayed in, brother work so so hard, sis so far away from home. Daddy- how are you up there?? Miss Him, thinking about it make my heart so 'miss'.... He's in good hands, enjoying the splendor of Heavenly Blessings, Take heart Shirley, Take heart!
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Saturday, September 10, 2005
MSQH- We got it! Hurrayyy!!
10th September 2005,
Saturday, 12.44pm. Another few minutes to go back. MSQH is over...and we got high chance for 3 years accreditation. Praise God, it's like whole lots of burden lifted up from my shoulder, yet...a lot concerns need to be carry out, especially in maintaning the standard and achievement. Really tired, plan to take a day off on Monday, but got a meeting, so couldn't able to.
Mind has been blanko a while. It's all about work, new services to offer, training to be continued on- progressing. Cost to be reviewed, there are more to come. Visitation to be made. Cytotoxic Recons P&P need to be finalized before Dr. Leong come back from leave. What else can Pharmacy offer? Yeah..just need to leave it to God, take one thing at a time, be cool and steady.
Church, friends....Hmm, for this pass 2 weeks, has not been actively involved in church and fellowship with believers, only CG last night. Yeah, last nite CG has been good, good sharing on conflict and need for paradigm shift on the attitude and how to response to conflict. Conflict not only in church, but also in working place. How is the attitude to be? What the Word of God said regarding this issue? Good chat with Winnie. Can see her willingness to be mould in God's Word..and her developing trust and dependant on God. Andrew and Winnie has been faithfully attending CG and church, very encouraging. Life is quite static here. Had snack with Emmeline yesterday. Good chat- a reminder to move out of comfort zone, to do something, to make life interesting and more purposeful. To find purpose in life, in God....
Saturday, 12.44pm. Another few minutes to go back. MSQH is over...and we got high chance for 3 years accreditation. Praise God, it's like whole lots of burden lifted up from my shoulder, yet...a lot concerns need to be carry out, especially in maintaning the standard and achievement. Really tired, plan to take a day off on Monday, but got a meeting, so couldn't able to.
Mind has been blanko a while. It's all about work, new services to offer, training to be continued on- progressing. Cost to be reviewed, there are more to come. Visitation to be made. Cytotoxic Recons P&P need to be finalized before Dr. Leong come back from leave. What else can Pharmacy offer? Yeah..just need to leave it to God, take one thing at a time, be cool and steady.
Church, friends....Hmm, for this pass 2 weeks, has not been actively involved in church and fellowship with believers, only CG last night. Yeah, last nite CG has been good, good sharing on conflict and need for paradigm shift on the attitude and how to response to conflict. Conflict not only in church, but also in working place. How is the attitude to be? What the Word of God said regarding this issue? Good chat with Winnie. Can see her willingness to be mould in God's Word..and her developing trust and dependant on God. Andrew and Winnie has been faithfully attending CG and church, very encouraging. Life is quite static here. Had snack with Emmeline yesterday. Good chat- a reminder to move out of comfort zone, to do something, to make life interesting and more purposeful. To find purpose in life, in God....
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
MSQH Day-2
7 August 2005,
Wednesday morning. Yesterday 1st day of Accreditation. We got the Chief Surveyor- CEO of Fatimah Hospital and CEO of Sg Petani Hospital coming to our Department to interview us. They're pretty strict this time, dig really deep into our P&P and our meeting minutes...most of the documents. But at least, praise God, I prepared and our QA and documentation are up to date. Geee..thot yesterday will be over, but not yet...today more to come. Later 1pm I'll be having interview with the 2 surveyors, with Dr. Ramasamy. I'm shivering. Don't know what to expect and don't really know what to prepare.
Life has been real busy and stressful, not of the load work, but it's more of the planning and the overload of stff running in my mind: wht's the outcome like? How's the staff doing? Can they answer the quiries? Can we pass? What will happen after MSQH? Am I doing right thing with Bulletin telling the consultants we're going into CDR? Oh..thinking about it make me fearful- more of expectation, from management, and staff. Will I overload the staff?
Lord, need Your wisdom. Wisdom from above. The peace of God that surpasses all understanding of man, to gurad my heart, my MIND in Christ. In Christ alone, Thank you!
Wednesday morning. Yesterday 1st day of Accreditation. We got the Chief Surveyor- CEO of Fatimah Hospital and CEO of Sg Petani Hospital coming to our Department to interview us. They're pretty strict this time, dig really deep into our P&P and our meeting minutes...most of the documents. But at least, praise God, I prepared and our QA and documentation are up to date. Geee..thot yesterday will be over, but not yet...today more to come. Later 1pm I'll be having interview with the 2 surveyors, with Dr. Ramasamy. I'm shivering. Don't know what to expect and don't really know what to prepare.
Life has been real busy and stressful, not of the load work, but it's more of the planning and the overload of stff running in my mind: wht's the outcome like? How's the staff doing? Can they answer the quiries? Can we pass? What will happen after MSQH? Am I doing right thing with Bulletin telling the consultants we're going into CDR? Oh..thinking about it make me fearful- more of expectation, from management, and staff. Will I overload the staff?
Lord, need Your wisdom. Wisdom from above. The peace of God that surpasses all understanding of man, to gurad my heart, my MIND in Christ. In Christ alone, Thank you!
Thursday, September 01, 2005
MSQH drawing Near...4 more days to go!
1st September 2005,
Thurs. After Merdeka holidays, quite slack! Wow, so fast, don't realise that another 4 more days for MSQH. Am I prepared? Not pretty sure. A lot things, need to familiar to know how to answer the surveyors; 7 of them, 4 doctors, 1 matron, 1 patologist, 1 CEO of one of the hospital. Don't know who will be interviewing Pharmacy department. Prayfully will be a better one- pray for favour, pray for grace.
After MSQH- another huge project- CDR, am not so familiar- blur*_* Need wisdom, need grace. despite the busyness schedule and plans and dateline to meet, I need to learn not to forget things so dear in my life:- family, friends, and people that has life. That they are much more important than those datelines and those static things. People is life, and they are precious- I need to learn to appreciate them, to spend time, to smile more.
I guess I havenot been mingle around with my staff. Even my Pharmacists- we did not really talk much personally- maybe I should do something about it. Well, pressure up the shoulder. Need to laid it down, not bearing my own, knowing that I am not serving man, but God. Not my name, not my reputation, but His Name, His Name be glorified. Just do your best- God do the rest, Relax...cool down, let go and let God. Might by might, not by power but by His Spirit. His Spirit empowered. You decreased, He increased!
Thurs. After Merdeka holidays, quite slack! Wow, so fast, don't realise that another 4 more days for MSQH. Am I prepared? Not pretty sure. A lot things, need to familiar to know how to answer the surveyors; 7 of them, 4 doctors, 1 matron, 1 patologist, 1 CEO of one of the hospital. Don't know who will be interviewing Pharmacy department. Prayfully will be a better one- pray for favour, pray for grace.
After MSQH- another huge project- CDR, am not so familiar- blur*_* Need wisdom, need grace. despite the busyness schedule and plans and dateline to meet, I need to learn not to forget things so dear in my life:- family, friends, and people that has life. That they are much more important than those datelines and those static things. People is life, and they are precious- I need to learn to appreciate them, to spend time, to smile more.
I guess I havenot been mingle around with my staff. Even my Pharmacists- we did not really talk much personally- maybe I should do something about it. Well, pressure up the shoulder. Need to laid it down, not bearing my own, knowing that I am not serving man, but God. Not my name, not my reputation, but His Name, His Name be glorified. Just do your best- God do the rest, Relax...cool down, let go and let God. Might by might, not by power but by His Spirit. His Spirit empowered. You decreased, He increased!
Conversation with God
1st Sept 2005,
Discover this quite some time ago. It's good- better save it in my blog for future reference:)
I Asked God to ...............
I asked God to take away my bad habits.
God said, It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.
I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary
I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, Patience is a byproduct of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is learned.
I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, I give you blessings; Happiness is up to you.
I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.
I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, You must grow on your own! , But I will prune you to make you fruitful.
I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things.
I ask God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.
God said...Ahhhh, finally you thinking right.
Trust in God.
An eventful Sunday
28th August 2005,
Today is 1st September but I am blogging in what happen last Sunday. Yeah, eventful Sunday. Had Dim-Sum with Angie and Ai Ling, then proceed to City Bayview Hotel for Protopic launching. Stay there chit chatting with Kenneth and Coring after lunch, then thinking of going Gurney for shopping. On my way there, sms-ed Angie asked her whether want to come but she not coming. The way to Gurney a lot of cars- so I scraped my plan for shopping, and move on to Western Road- planning to go cemetery. On my way, Mum called, I pick up the phone, and talking on the phone while driving. As usual...did not use hand-free;) then on my way turn to cemetery, I saw the police behind me also trying to turn in the cemetery...Oh Man! I switched my h.p. and throw it away....
Then the police stop my at the juncture to Cemetery. We 'chat' for almost half an hour. I asked him to give me another chance, not to summon me, he keep arguing that working in hospital a lot money. Private-work a lot money, in a way hinting to me to bribe. He said, "Jadi- macam mana?" Geee....I said "Tak Tau la, saya minta tolong maaf satu kali, kalau encik tak mau tolong- tak apalah, saya bayar" Then I think I do mention 'agama'- "agama Kristen tidak boleh tolong encik"..something like that. Oh Man! What am I saying...he will surely summon me, he even scared me that it will cost about RM150, or if more RM 300...hmm..what to do?? I am so tempted to just give RM50 and chao...but I can't do it. Remember pas message- pastor mentioned he's a Christian and can't bribe, then the police let him go...so maybe I can do the same, but if he summon me, then he summon-lah...
Praise God, the police finally said- "pergi", pass back all my IC and Driving licence. I can't stop thanking him. He must be thinking what kinda of this little girl like me, jumping excitedly thanking him:) Haha...then I drive to see daddy...after such long time. Didn't even bring anything- no flowers. Bring my heart and soul and mind there. Miss daddy. Then after a while, drive out from cemetery- the police still there..hmm...what happen ah? I give him a sign of 'bye bye' and go off....hope he won't submit my particular and summon me. i think won't lar..
This precious lesson taught me not to talk on-the-phone and drive. And also to not compromise in the standrad of the world. Thank God for all.
Today is 1st September but I am blogging in what happen last Sunday. Yeah, eventful Sunday. Had Dim-Sum with Angie and Ai Ling, then proceed to City Bayview Hotel for Protopic launching. Stay there chit chatting with Kenneth and Coring after lunch, then thinking of going Gurney for shopping. On my way there, sms-ed Angie asked her whether want to come but she not coming. The way to Gurney a lot of cars- so I scraped my plan for shopping, and move on to Western Road- planning to go cemetery. On my way, Mum called, I pick up the phone, and talking on the phone while driving. As usual...did not use hand-free;) then on my way turn to cemetery, I saw the police behind me also trying to turn in the cemetery...Oh Man! I switched my h.p. and throw it away....
Then the police stop my at the juncture to Cemetery. We 'chat' for almost half an hour. I asked him to give me another chance, not to summon me, he keep arguing that working in hospital a lot money. Private-work a lot money, in a way hinting to me to bribe. He said, "Jadi- macam mana?" Geee....I said "Tak Tau la, saya minta tolong maaf satu kali, kalau encik tak mau tolong- tak apalah, saya bayar" Then I think I do mention 'agama'- "agama Kristen tidak boleh tolong encik"..something like that. Oh Man! What am I saying...he will surely summon me, he even scared me that it will cost about RM150, or if more RM 300...hmm..what to do?? I am so tempted to just give RM50 and chao...but I can't do it. Remember pas message- pastor mentioned he's a Christian and can't bribe, then the police let him go...so maybe I can do the same, but if he summon me, then he summon-lah...
Praise God, the police finally said- "pergi", pass back all my IC and Driving licence. I can't stop thanking him. He must be thinking what kinda of this little girl like me, jumping excitedly thanking him:) Haha...then I drive to see daddy...after such long time. Didn't even bring anything- no flowers. Bring my heart and soul and mind there. Miss daddy. Then after a while, drive out from cemetery- the police still there..hmm...what happen ah? I give him a sign of 'bye bye' and go off....hope he won't submit my particular and summon me. i think won't lar..
This precious lesson taught me not to talk on-the-phone and drive. And also to not compromise in the standrad of the world. Thank God for all.
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